trust

that's a difficult word to comprehend...everyone have their different perspectives.

damn

sigh...

I have like loads of stuff to do while at the same time I have to study for tests that start on VALENTINES' DAY. like wth?! oh that's just so sad man...

ok was so depressed on Sunday man... somehow Sundays never fails to make me depressed. sigh...
anyway, I like seriously need to learn how to keep my mouth shut. and not sound so terribly extra...I've got to learn that sometimes people just cannot be bothered with me and since when they would be interested with what's going on with me? it'll just end up in a awkward silence. my attempt to join a conversation fails yet again. hmm...maybe I don't have social skills and I'm just doing it all wrong...that's bad.oh man... and don't even talk about first impressions. this is not the first time. AHHHH!!!! kill me now:( and it really doesn't help especially when my friend is as unobservant and is too dumb to realise that I am in a difficult spot and all she does is nod -.- like wth. then AWKARD SILENCE. shit. damn malu. shoot me please.

AHHH... so sad:(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IZABELLA AND JEANNICA!!!!!!!!

that is if you even read this post!hahaha((:

my my need to do chang, jean and bella's birthday cards. had gb yesterday it was so fun!! hahaha it was the trial meeting for the sec 1s and there was 2 other AMANDAs' i was like NOOOO!!!!!if they like really join GB i'm not going to be the only AMANDA in GB anymore!!!!!!so sad>( and during games time, annabelle and I were peppering our sentences with "WORX"s. we were trying to act ah lian but it was kind of a total failure because we were too UPCLASS to speak twit talk. :P HAHAHAHAAHHAHA.

anyway yesterday was also a whole lot of new info thrown at me...scary... especially when I was on the bus with alicia last evening.hmmm...alicia is a FLIRT. HAHAHAHAHA. need to go start on homework now...

sshhhh its a secret and DUH, I'm keeping it:D

listening to the KLAXONS.

ARGH. I'm super cranky. burning fats tmr. and stupid amath.

sigh.

my sub-concious is screwed. rockets. DAMN.

this year better be a year of change. or someone just knock me out flat.

seriously.

sigh.

I'm thinking too much, yet again.

DOUGIE of Cambodia.

here's to you lizzabeth, trust me he looks more like Dougie in person:D

ohohohoh!! HELLO!

well well.

I'm half happy, half sad? I'm not even sure how I feel. HAHAHAHA.

anyway, yesterday I forgot to blog about some stuff...hahaha.
jean, dav and I were like talking about Cambodia pics and reminiscing....hahaha we all just realised that whatever we do we always refer back to our Cambodia trip...so funny! we sound like old people talking about the past. like how the past to old people is so fresh in their minds!!! OMGOODNESS. we're OLD:( that's bad.

and I think my memory is getting worse. I need to write almost everything down. because if I don't I'll forget. gosh. I'M OLD:(

listening to amy winehouse

Finshed all my hw except chinese:P but HEY its a good achievement ok? because they due friday and I'm normally the "leave it to the last minute" kind of person so this is a really achievement!
hahaha...have cca on friday...good and bad, mixed feelings. and cca fair on Saturday that is a NOOOOOO!!!!! my saturday will be gone:(

anyway, got Cambodia pics!!! but the nice ones weren't there. sad right? but I think I'll get them soon:D and I went through them yesterday like OH MY GOODNESS. so TA-GLAM!!!! I never realised that when we were taking all the pictures we looked so UNGLAM. LIKE AHHHHH!!!!! I just like realised it yesterday when I was going through them!!! TA-GLAM!!!!! :(

ah well I'll post the nice ones when they come:D

I'm super sleepy...like SUPER sleepy.

and well cranky.

I'm happy, crazy, normal and in denial on the outside.

inside? its a different story altogether. I'm just bursting on the inside, I'm stressed with my own problems that's like caused by myself?! like WTH?! who does that to oneself?! well I guess that person is me. Its a miracle I'm not in IMH.

and on the outside? I'm just ABOUT to POP!

church-ed today.

it was kinda funny.

was struggling with the stupid chinese book. haha delane was like trying to get different people to "lang du" so funny. in the end? the both of us just took the book sat down, set our mind to it and we read aloud together... it felt like we're primary school kids all over again but it WORKED. we managed to understand and even slowly summarised it!!! and I managed my amath homework...which was GOOD:D haha actually with hehe help.

anyway, did quite a decent amount of talking today. got a bit depressed but I'm ok. I think I just need sleep.

but tmr sucks need to stay in school til 5pm for some stupid house meeting. waste time...hahaha.

listening to AMY WINEHOUSE....back to black(album)

THANK YOU NIC!!!!!!! for back to black:P you made me HAPPY(:

hahaha...just drank tea so there's a a lot of caffaine in me so please excuse me if I sound too crazy.

actually. I have nothing to blog about. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

and there's hardly anyone to talk to online now. I'm so bloody bored...and high.....*sigh*

HEY EVERYONE.

congratulate me. I MANAGED TO SURVIVE THE FIRST 3 DAYS OF SEC 3 LIFE. OMG!!!!!!!!!! seriously, I think a miracle just happened. LIKE WOW. and I had a taste of A MATH this morining...I was like "DIE. I'm flunking amath." oh well I need to work hard like shit this year. This year is going to be living hell. at least that's what I think.haha.

oh and I just ate a slice of a prima deli cake. HAHA.

ITS 2008!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!OMG OMG...not that I really care its the new year.

BUT I'M SO DARN HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I THINK ITS THE BEST NEW YEARS' DAY PRESENT EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NOT THAT THERE IS SUCH THING AS A NEW YEARS' DAY PRESENT BUT OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M SO OVERJOYED, I DON'T THINK I CAN SLEEP TONIGHT. AND NEITHER CAN I THINK STRAIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
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