heylo!

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LOVES
MANDA!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICKY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMIGOSH I'M SO SORRY FOR MY STUPIDITY:(((

(HEE...YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN)

HELLO! my dear sillys ,who actually bother to read my rantings, just to let you know, if I'm not updating here, I am ranting at my livejournal. yesh. I know I'm a little bit crazy to have 2 ranting sites. haha.

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LOVES
AMANDA!

hehe. I just realised I can be quite evil when I want to. ESPECIALLY IF SOMEONE hits the wrong nerve of mine. I have quite a high tolerance level, though not as high as some other people I know; I totally admire them for that, BUT seriously I can't stand _____________________ kind of people. URKS ME. no matter how much patience I have with them.
tut tut. childish acts.

hahahahahhaa. I'm a bit high right now. not knowing why. must be lack of sleep.hahahahha.

AMATH PAPER TMR.
*yelps!screams!die.*

ok maybe not that dramatic but yeah you get the point.

anyway. Pastor spoke about something on Sunday. Well on the topic of Sevice. Regardless on whether service to church, school or whatever. Yeah and well during SG we talked about what service really meant to us. And you know what? That really striked a bell in me. I've done quite a lot so far. And you know like how during GB devotion, or whatever sharings I've attend though they talk about this topic quite a lot it has never really made me think SO much about the question "what does service really means to me?" until now.
So I think that really served me much to think about now.

okok NEED to get back to Amath now. or I don't think I'll need to pass tmr. haha.

listening to This is Your Life by SWITCHFOOT

ahhhh.... tests coming up...feeling the pressure!!

but right after tests I'll be like busy busy busy with stuff.
I will be attending MANY camps
just in June alone I have FOUR camps to attend.

yep that's the number of camps I need to attend.

good or bad? you decide.

I'm coughing like some mad chicken now.
which spells N-O I-C-E C-R-E-A-M :(

and ya by the way to those who have no idea, I have a Livejournal yep. so I'll be ranting here and there. hahahahahha.

112

I've been self-entertaining myself the whole day.

lack of sleep = high

the day was so boring.

lalala

oh and I think I'm gonna fall sick. hahaha.

111

listenining to cute is what we aim for

ok church-ed today.

after lunch.
delane = LAME.

Delane: *asks rachel* Aye! why you like to wear maxi skirts so much?

Rachel: *mumbles something nobody can hear*

Me: what's a maxi skirt?

Delane: Oh skirts er *fumbles with words* to the max lor!

Me: -.-

phrase of the day: SKIRTS TO THE MAX.

lol. she meants long skirts to its maximum length, or something along that line. hahhahaa.
funnae man.

its ok if you don't get it. its more of a have-to-be-there kinda moment.
haha.

waiting for sweeny todd to load.

today, had PL cross country.
had duty. it was so darn boring. I stare at you, you stare at me -.-
almost died of boredom.

anyway after that, I went out to TM with nicky, lizz and sarahlingling. EVERYWHERE I TURNed I SAW A PL GIRL. I almost fainted. suffocation. too many PL girls outside school at one time. makes me nauseated. not that I'm trying to imply anything bad. It just does. allergic reaction maybe.
bought some birthday presents for people.
and got my new wallet.
so pretty happy about it. because my old wallet is 2338824929393 years old and falling apart.
haha.
when I got home.
I slept. from like 4 something to 9. explains why I'm still awake at this (to me) illegal hour. hahaha.

ok gonna continue to watch my movie now. gosh I think I'm going to get nightmares. hahahaha:D

109

hello hello.



someone pissed me off today, like seriously.

I mean come on! give me more specific instructions please?

and then when I ask you about it, you just give me a matter-of-fact answer expecting me to understand. like GBIH!!!!

GOSH. I'm already so stressed out, and you give me this kind of shit?!

you'll be the DEATH of me.



and I just got to know an ABSOLUTE SHOCKING REVELATION.

so shocking.

well at least not as shocking as ________________________________.

ah well, this IS LIFE.



ARGH.


nicky: hey hey I'm fine darling, thanks! just a bit stressed out...but I'll pull through(:
Lizz: haha its all over now. its ok, just fine! thanks for asking!(:
esther: hahaha *whisper whisper* like WHATEVER. you are so lame. and DON'T FORGET MY SUSHI HOR.
towing: HEY HEY(: yeah have not been talking to you in a while...

listening to Pictures of You by THE LAST GOODNIGHT

ok I have blardy SWELLS under my EYES. omg. I look terrible and they itch like hell.
OH and I don't even know why they are swelling. if it gets worse tmr, I have to stay home.

ANYWAY.

I NEED to rant.

107

embarrassed myself yesterday
and SOMEONE saw (and most likely laughed) at my terribly PRICELESS expression.
so unglam.
and embarrassing.
sigh.

anyway, i'm super exctited about tmr. I think I don't have to sleep tonight.
ahahaha.

I'm going to be an insomniac!
*gasps!* at such a young age.
ahahahaha. omg. I'm so darn lame.

106

listening to Stop and Stare by ONE REPUBLIC

OHkay today was NOT fun at all.

BUT I did manage to achieve something today.
I finished my amath homework and got all the questions right!
well that was because I had a ton of help.
SO GOOD WORK AMANDA!

hahaha.

ok on to the bad part of the day.
was pretty bummed out about something.
about this decision that I've made a countless of times but never stuck to it.
And NOW I've really made up my mind.
The decision has been made.
This time I'm going to tell myself to stick with it.
no matter what.
there.

105

hello my darlings.

things have not been looking good lately.
especially now my fringe looks like shit. its so SHORT now, they look like like really bad bangs! OMG EW!!! they are NOT suppose to be bangs!!
and also the fact that I'm all burnt because of yesterday.
I'm as red as a lobster. and terrible tanlines all over the place. goodness.
OH and I stiil have to wear my braces for an even longer period of time.
they can only be off in JULY?AUGUST? instead of JUNE:( have to bear with metals in my mouth for a longer period of time. not fun.

and I have to open my eyes, ears and mind at all times tmr.
Its gonna be fun! I HOPE.

today was so boring.

AMATH was KILLER.
I was literally falling asleep until I had a stomachache and ran to the toilet.

like dammit, there was someone shitting too in the toilet. in the only SEAT toilet.
smelly man. I was like all prepared to yell at the person.

then guess who came out?
hanya.

RANDOM. please. I was so suprised. Her classroom wasn't even on that level.


anyway. I just remembered

ESTHER CHOY YA HUI YOU STILL OWE ME SUSHI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

or at least JAPANESE food.

don't think I forgot.

102

hello.

I think my previous post is absolutely pathetic.
hahahaha.

oh well.

I mean I was really feeling terrible.

hmph. now I'm just kind of unfeeling.

I've got loads of stupid amath to do.

which I absolutely DO NOT UNDERSTAND.

Oh pumpkins.
It DUES tmr.

DARN IT.

101

Today has been a rather eventful day. am I lying? maybe I just am. To myself.

The phrase "EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED."

Today has definitely explained to me the REAL meaning of that phrase/sentence.

If what I think now after obeserving this much is true.
I really have nothing much to say.
Everyone says, and its a pretty known fact that we should not wallow in self-pity, but sometimes I just can't help myself.
Of course, I just bluff my way through my own head half the time.
AND Most of the time?
It Works.
I'm sure this time its gonna work.
I Just need time.

hmm...
A teenage girls' life?
Definitely NOT easy.
Along with the hormones and the "special" sixth sense given to us girls.
Definitely NOT easy.
Sometimes it can be a good thing.
and a BAD thing too.
Right now?
I think I'm facing the bad effects of it.
Why can't I be as clueless as a guy?
Which will be so much better because I'll never observe such things.
And my mental state would be so much better without the think-too-much "procedure" that takes place a lot in my head.

Now to make this all worse.
School is starting tmr.
Which.well.
SUCKS.
My mood is in THE PITS.

sigh.I will just be happy with my friends and whatever I have ,and ignore this pit feeling.

As it is said.
Ignorance is bliss.

OH!!!!

THIS IS MY 100 POST! SO COOL!

HAHAHAHAHA. I'm so full right now. snacking at shak's house on her mum's AMAZING banana fritters and then straight away shower eat dinner. omigosh I'm super full.
how I ended up at shakila's house? all thanks to the rain. I was in church studying and it started RAINING like crap. could not get my parents to pick me up...so continued to study...then the rain got lesser and at the same time we were getting chased out because church was closing so I left. it was drizzling quite badly still so went to coffee shop drink teh bing after that when we wanted to walk to the bus stop the rain got heavier and heavier and heavier SO shak, delane and I squished ourselves under a teeny umbrella and the rain just got heavier so in the end, we just ran under the void deck. so that was how we ended up at shakila's house. hahahaa.

ANYWAY.

I should have gone yesterday for zoomunji. so wasted. SIGH. and esther if you read this you can stop screaming at me now...I feel bad enough already.

sighsighsigh.

BUT. on the good side. though I ate a ton of FRIED food(macs) and COKE(macs) my throat got better! I'm not croaking anymore! YAY!

wheee!! haha.

hello!

I'm staying home tmr!

when I know I'm suppose to be somewhere ELSE. *BIG GRIN*

but I'm not going. sore throat. and a FLU which prevents me from smelling or even tasting anything at all.

tried and tasted on green tea and curry (fyi I did not mix and eat them together just in case you think otherwise). I can hardly taste a single thing. If you blindfold me and give me shit to eat...I'll say it taste ok. OK WAIT -
maybe not till that extend that I can't taste shit, but you get my point.

ahh I feel like crap and camp is this week!!
AHHHH. excited? YESH I TOTALLY AM:D

WHEEEE....

I'm a bit crazy at this point of time....due to ALMOST a WHOLE bar of hersheys' SPECIAL DARK CHOCOLATE:D

ahhh but I have a ton of homework to do...and I feel like sleeping. haha.

AYE.

have not blogged in a loooooooooong time...hehe cts are always the cause.

anyway I think I'm gonna fail every subject but geog?

hahaha because I just found out my geog results today!! Was very much suprised by the results...I actually did beyond my expectations! so it was quite a good day... despite all the rushing last night ( and 5 minutes ago) to cough out camp proposal which dues 2359hrs TODAY. so yeah, all I have to do now, is send it in after a last round of check. hmm...I better go send it in now...

happy valentines' day everyone!

today was kinda DULL. tests tests tests. study study study. not exactly very fun.

I have not been thinking a lot about some particular issue lately, but somehow it has returned...a bit. trying my best to kick it out of my mind. it is definitely harder than I thought it was already going to be. ah well.

I like this song. a lot.

"Teardrops On My Guitar"

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

the irony of who the song it is written too. (does not apply to me):D

AHAHAHAHAHAH.

MISSION is about to be accomplished. I am so proud of myself!

70% SUCCESS RATE and going on strong!

argh but tmr will be having cts...a little stressed out.

I don't know what is going on with me.

misunderstandings

baffling thoughts and statements.

or am I growing green horns?

jealousy is a strong word. and am I just making it all up because I'm too paranoid to think straight? just like ______?

Gods' promises. He keeps them.

My promises to Him?

I break them.

I'm relatively happy today.

partially because I made a resolution for myself. to stay happy ALWAYS! or at least most of the time. and not let anything beat me down too much. today's sermon really impacted me a lot.

really.

seriously.

I mean why should I? I shouldn't! because the Lord is there always there by my side. and the Lord never keep empty promises.

oh man...its SUNDAY. once again I'm not exactly in the best of moods but not angry either. just disappointed. VERY disappointed. I was looking forward to it THE WHOLE WEEK since last sunday and then.THIS. I mean how disappointing can it get?! ok let me answer that, VERY.

oh well, I guess its just part of life. a passing phase. it will take some time to blow over though...

hello everyone! ITS THE WEEKEND!!!!!!!WHEEE!!

yesterday 31 Jan 2008

HOLIDAY!! thanks to the sec4s last year who did so super well!!:D went shopping with my mum! omigosh I think I just burnt a big hole in her pocket...hehe...really its the first time the bill exceded more then *coughs*#$% dollars*coughs* thanks to the discount though...but on second thought is didn't exactly help much. hahaha... my mum was like "no more shopping for the rest of the year"...me: OOPS. hahah but yeah I'm positive she doesn't mean it...hahahaha. the only thing I didn't buy yesterday was SHOES. hahahaha. unexpected? yeah I know. But she already go me 2 new pairs a few weeks ago so...haha shall be contented with what I have.

today 1 Feb 2008

oh wow today damn screwed. long stressful, screwed up day. was sooo pissed off. shan't elaborate. it was practically exasperating.

sigh.

trust

that's a difficult word to comprehend...everyone have their different perspectives.

damn

sigh...

I have like loads of stuff to do while at the same time I have to study for tests that start on VALENTINES' DAY. like wth?! oh that's just so sad man...

ok was so depressed on Sunday man... somehow Sundays never fails to make me depressed. sigh...
anyway, I like seriously need to learn how to keep my mouth shut. and not sound so terribly extra...I've got to learn that sometimes people just cannot be bothered with me and since when they would be interested with what's going on with me? it'll just end up in a awkward silence. my attempt to join a conversation fails yet again. hmm...maybe I don't have social skills and I'm just doing it all wrong...that's bad.oh man... and don't even talk about first impressions. this is not the first time. AHHHH!!!! kill me now:( and it really doesn't help especially when my friend is as unobservant and is too dumb to realise that I am in a difficult spot and all she does is nod -.- like wth. then AWKARD SILENCE. shit. damn malu. shoot me please.

AHHH... so sad:(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IZABELLA AND JEANNICA!!!!!!!!

that is if you even read this post!hahaha((:

my my need to do chang, jean and bella's birthday cards. had gb yesterday it was so fun!! hahaha it was the trial meeting for the sec 1s and there was 2 other AMANDAs' i was like NOOOO!!!!!if they like really join GB i'm not going to be the only AMANDA in GB anymore!!!!!!so sad>( and during games time, annabelle and I were peppering our sentences with "WORX"s. we were trying to act ah lian but it was kind of a total failure because we were too UPCLASS to speak twit talk. :P HAHAHAHAAHHAHA.

anyway yesterday was also a whole lot of new info thrown at me...scary... especially when I was on the bus with alicia last evening.hmmm...alicia is a FLIRT. HAHAHAHAHA. need to go start on homework now...

sshhhh its a secret and DUH, I'm keeping it:D

listening to the KLAXONS.

ARGH. I'm super cranky. burning fats tmr. and stupid amath.

sigh.

my sub-concious is screwed. rockets. DAMN.

this year better be a year of change. or someone just knock me out flat.

seriously.

sigh.

I'm thinking too much, yet again.

DOUGIE of Cambodia.

here's to you lizzabeth, trust me he looks more like Dougie in person:D

ohohohoh!! HELLO!

well well.

I'm half happy, half sad? I'm not even sure how I feel. HAHAHAHA.

anyway, yesterday I forgot to blog about some stuff...hahaha.
jean, dav and I were like talking about Cambodia pics and reminiscing....hahaha we all just realised that whatever we do we always refer back to our Cambodia trip...so funny! we sound like old people talking about the past. like how the past to old people is so fresh in their minds!!! OMGOODNESS. we're OLD:( that's bad.

and I think my memory is getting worse. I need to write almost everything down. because if I don't I'll forget. gosh. I'M OLD:(

listening to amy winehouse

Finshed all my hw except chinese:P but HEY its a good achievement ok? because they due friday and I'm normally the "leave it to the last minute" kind of person so this is a really achievement!
hahaha...have cca on friday...good and bad, mixed feelings. and cca fair on Saturday that is a NOOOOOO!!!!! my saturday will be gone:(

anyway, got Cambodia pics!!! but the nice ones weren't there. sad right? but I think I'll get them soon:D and I went through them yesterday like OH MY GOODNESS. so TA-GLAM!!!! I never realised that when we were taking all the pictures we looked so UNGLAM. LIKE AHHHHH!!!!! I just like realised it yesterday when I was going through them!!! TA-GLAM!!!!! :(

ah well I'll post the nice ones when they come:D

I'm super sleepy...like SUPER sleepy.

and well cranky.

I'm happy, crazy, normal and in denial on the outside.

inside? its a different story altogether. I'm just bursting on the inside, I'm stressed with my own problems that's like caused by myself?! like WTH?! who does that to oneself?! well I guess that person is me. Its a miracle I'm not in IMH.

and on the outside? I'm just ABOUT to POP!

church-ed today.

it was kinda funny.

was struggling with the stupid chinese book. haha delane was like trying to get different people to "lang du" so funny. in the end? the both of us just took the book sat down, set our mind to it and we read aloud together... it felt like we're primary school kids all over again but it WORKED. we managed to understand and even slowly summarised it!!! and I managed my amath homework...which was GOOD:D haha actually with hehe help.

anyway, did quite a decent amount of talking today. got a bit depressed but I'm ok. I think I just need sleep.

but tmr sucks need to stay in school til 5pm for some stupid house meeting. waste time...hahaha.

listening to AMY WINEHOUSE....back to black(album)

THANK YOU NIC!!!!!!! for back to black:P you made me HAPPY(:

hahaha...just drank tea so there's a a lot of caffaine in me so please excuse me if I sound too crazy.

actually. I have nothing to blog about. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

and there's hardly anyone to talk to online now. I'm so bloody bored...and high.....*sigh*

HEY EVERYONE.

congratulate me. I MANAGED TO SURVIVE THE FIRST 3 DAYS OF SEC 3 LIFE. OMG!!!!!!!!!! seriously, I think a miracle just happened. LIKE WOW. and I had a taste of A MATH this morining...I was like "DIE. I'm flunking amath." oh well I need to work hard like shit this year. This year is going to be living hell. at least that's what I think.haha.

oh and I just ate a slice of a prima deli cake. HAHA.

ITS 2008!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!OMG OMG...not that I really care its the new year.

BUT I'M SO DARN HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I THINK ITS THE BEST NEW YEARS' DAY PRESENT EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NOT THAT THERE IS SUCH THING AS A NEW YEARS' DAY PRESENT BUT OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M SO OVERJOYED, I DON'T THINK I CAN SLEEP TONIGHT. AND NEITHER CAN I THINK STRAIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
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